Wednesday, August 22, 2012

victory?

In a small way God answered our prayers yesterday. I guess I shouldn't say small. God DID answer our prayers yesterday. At least our prayers for Kathy to receive the minimum sentence.

However the fact that she'll be eligible for parole after 10 years doesn't seem like a victory. Especially when those of us who know and love her believe in her innocence.

Nearly 50 people wrote letters to the judge on her behalf. That number is unprecedented! Those of us who know her know she is incapable of the crime she was charged with. I thank God that she received the minimum sentence, but nothing was "won" in that courtroom yesterday.

My heart is broken. For her. For her family. For the life lost.
So many of us are crying out to God. For justice. For mercy. For redemption.

She has a long road ahead of her. And I will be there. I will not lose hope.


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

sentence

So today is a big day. A dear family friend has her sentencing this afternoon. For a serious crime I strongly believe she did not commit. To the depths of my soul I believe in her innocence. Today I am begging for prayers. Prayers for truth, for the minimum sentence (for the charges to be overturned later and ultimately freedom) and peace for her and her family.

I've been writing to her every week since the conviction at the beginning of June and last week I was out of words so I opened my Bible. This is what I came across.

"Stand up, God; pit your holy fury against my furious enemies. Wake up, God. My accusers have packed the courtroom; it's judgment time. Take your place on the bench, reach for your gavel, throw out the false charges against me. I'm ready, confident in your verdict: 'Innocent.' " -Psalm 7:6-8, The Message

It absolutely took my breath away and I furiously began writing to share these words with her. I trust that God's hand is in this. I do not understand the hows and whys, but I am praying fervently for God's mercy and redemption. Please pray with me today.

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Sunday, August 19, 2012

a little honesty

I keep telling myself that I'll feel better if I get back into a blogging routine, because with any social media you can put the best contruction on your reality and maybe life would be better if I could make it look that way. However it's been all I can do to do the bare minimums.

So here is a little honesty: life has been...um...difficult? It seems everywhere I turn there is a battle to face. At work. At home. At church. In relationships [with others and with myself]. I'm exhausted. I'm tired of trying to hold it all together. I feel like everything I am, everything I do and everything I have just isn't enough.

In the past I've written about contentment and living an unhindered life, however lately I'm feeling anything but. I feel lost, broken and without direction. I have felt this way in the past, right before my decision to move back home. I wonder if God isn't stirring up my life in order to prepare me for another big change.

I want a change so badly, but I'm at a loss for how. It's driving me crazy and I feel so unhappy. I am craving independance, freedom, friendship and a job I'm passionate about. I just don't know how to get there.

I'm clinging to these verses from Psalm 119 that my friend Janelle shared with me over a year ago [Waiting Expectantly for the Road to Somewhere] because they are still as true today as they were when I first read them.

"I'm feeling terrible—I couldn't feel worse! Get me on my feet again. You promised, remember? When I told my story, you responded; train me well in your deep wisdom. Help me understand these things inside and out so I can ponder your miracle-wonders. My sad life's dilapidated, a falling-down barn; build me up again by your Word. Barricade the road that goes Nowhere; grace me with your clear revelation. I choose the true road to Somewhere, I post your road signs at every curve and corner. I grasp and cling to whatever you tell me; GOD, don't let me down! I'll run the course you lay out for me if you'll just show me how."
Psalm 119:25-32


Tuesday, August 14, 2012

currently

I got this idea from sweet Cara! I thought it'd be a fun idea to get back into blogging, as I've obviously been a bit absent lately.

WORKING ON: Refinishing a kitchen table and chairs found at a garage sale. Organzing my ideas for blogging. Planning my future.

THINKING ABOUT: How much I want a vacation. My to-do list. How tired I am.

ANTICIPATING: My friend Janelle's wedding next month! Roadtripping to California. Seeing JENNY and MEGAN! [All wedding related.]

WATCHING: Pretty Little Liars. Make It Or Break It. [I was watching the] Olympics

READING: The Message. Skinny Rules by Bob Harper. Nylon.

EATING: Guacamole. Homemade veggie pizza. Greenbean casserole.

DRINKING: Homemade sun tea [David's Tea]. Mistletoe mocha. Water.

LISTENING: Pandora on shuffle. Village Church sermons by Matt Chandler. Joe Brooks.

THANKFUL FOR: The new television my parents got me for my birthday. My sweet cats. 

LOVING: Pretty Little Liars [more than I should]. Exerbeat for Wii. justWink cards.

WISHING: I had my own place. I was out of debt. I could sleep all day.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

27 before 28


Happy birthday to me! And to my sweet sister, Ashlee! I'm 27 today! That's still early twenties, right?!? I am SO ready for a new year and a fresh start. I cannot wait to see what 27 holds for me. I think it's going to be a MAJOR year with many changes and lots of adventure. Bring it 27!

1. Meet Amanda
2. Take a road trip to California
3. See Janelle get married
4. Create a monthly budget
5. Pay off my small student loan & car loan

6. Move out
7.  Sew a quilt
8. Learn how to do cat-eye makeup
9. Practice piano 5 days a week
10. Get current on my scrapbooks (2009-current)

11. Re-read Quitter by Job Acuff
12. Complete RVA Dream Job e-course
13. Take a calligraphy class
14. Take an archery class
15. Watch all Wes Anderson movies

16. Go on a hike
17. Run a 5k
18. Try a new fitness activity (zumba, ballet, rock climbing, hula hooping)
19. Eat primarily vegetarian
20. Buy a bicycle

21. Read the Bible-cover to cover
22. Have a Pinterest dinner party
23. Go to Camp Perkins for the Women’s Crafting Retreat
24. Complete kitchen table & chairs makeover
25. Finish reading The Daniel Fast & practice the spiritual act of fasting

26. Try to make macarons again
27. Create one painting a month