I'm Jenn ( Joyfuljenn.com ) I'm a wife, teacher, blogger, designer and dog - mom. I love Jesus with all my heart. I'm a very sensitive person, but I'm strong and genuine. I have a gentle spirit. I love to write, and find blogging to be very therapeutic, so I write about anything and everything no matter how significant or insignificant it may seem.
I initially told Heather I was going to write about marriage, but I've had it on my heart to write about Perseverance and Endurance instead, I promise I'll tie all three together.
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A little over two years ago, I exchanged vows and made a commitment to my best friend. I'm lucky to have found my best friend. When I made that commitment, and spoke my vows, I didn't know what the future would hold for us, no one does for that matter. I was optimistic in thinking that nothing bad would happen. I believed the "In sickness" part of our vows might come, but not for 20, 30, 50 years.
The first 6 months of our marriage were bliss. After we'd been married six months and before we celebrated our second wedding anniversary, my husband had underwent 4 ankle surgeries, and was diagnosed with type one diabetes. I was in the middle of my student teaching year, and underwent sinus surgery. As I'm writing this, my husband is healing from his fourth and hopefully last ankle surgery. We are thankful how careful this doctor has been. This recovery period has been the longest of any of the previous surgeries. My husband has been on crutches for over two months now. This has left him unable to walk, drive and do many of the other things he loves to do and has left me trying to do everything he does in addition to everything I do. Type 1 Diabetes is a never ending journey (at least not yet). There is no cure and it changes Shawn's life every day (and mine). He tests his blood sugar multiple (6+) times a day and injects himself with insulin 3-4 times a day before he eats -- just to live. We changed how we eat, and made many adjustments to our lives schedules.
All of these things are difficult, but doable. There are still days that I cry, because it's hard and I get upset. I wonder,
As I'm sure you can imagine, this has put a large amount of stress on both of us. It has put stress on our marriage in every way imaginable. The other day I think God finally got through to me.
God never said our journey here on earth would be easy.
I believe at times, God WILL give us more than we can handle, but that is why we have family, local churches and other christians out there for us to reach out to for love and support.
At the end of the day, WE NEED GOD.
We cannot do it alone.
In addition to learning that I need God and I need to learn to reach out to other people --
I believe that God has been teaching me to persevere through my struggles and to endure through hard times.
Perseverance: continuance in a state of grace to the end, leading to eternal salvation.
Perseverance: steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.
There have been so many times I have wanted to sit in bed and not face the day -- but I have gotten out of bed, gotten dressed and faced the day anyway.
There have been many days that I have cried and cried, but I have pulled myself together, sought help and guidance and moved forward. I have endured the hardships and persevered with God's help.
Shawn and I have set goals -- we talk about the future and we are moving forward each and everyday.
However, it's important to note that we are moving forward with God's help and provision.
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Where can you use a little more endurance and perseverance in your life?