As you may know from reading my post on Sunday, I've been having a hard time. I know that life will never be easy, but lately I have felt so weary and beaten down. Luckily, this week was much better than last week even though it started out rough.
I have taken better care of myself and I'm feeling good. After getting my hair done (red!), working out four times (Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred), and a couple new dresses (Target will be my downfall), I feel happier, more confident and ready for whatever is next for me.
I have to admit I'm still a little heartbroken, but I believe with all my heart that God knows what is best for me and I am surrendering my life and the people in my life to Him. I know I've said the same thing before, but this time I feel like I'm finally letting go of the past.
I am once again learning how to trust. It is scary, but it is also freeing.
Currently I am reading Beautiful Things Happen When A Women Trusts God, by Sheila Walsh. I just started Chapter Eight called, Trusting God with Your Fear- The Beauty of Taking a Step Forward. Oh the irony. It is exactly what I need to hear, but I suppose God knew that.
The chapter began with this quote:
Let us be like a bird for a moment perched
On a frail branch when he sings;
Though he feels it bend, yet he sings his song.
Knowing that he has wings.
Shelia also included these verses from Proverbs. I've heard them many times before, as they are some of my go-to verses, but I've never read them from the Message paraphrase before.
Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all. Run to God!
Proverbs 3:5-7 MSG
God is so good. Even when life is hard, God is still good. Even though I'm still uncertain with where I'm headed I can finally place my complete trust in God and His plan for my life.