Wednesday, February 10, 2010
The Ramen Girl
The other night I crawled into bed early and watched The Ramen Girl on Netflix. I was pleasantly surprised, maybe because in some ways I identified with Brittany Murphy's character, Abby.
At one point she is sobbing in a ramen shop about being 4 years out of college with nothing to show for it. That is exactly how I feel. She said, "Somewhere along the way I just forgot what I wanted to do with my life... "
I am feeling very lost and confused right now. I know that God has my future in His hands, but everything is so unclear. Monday really broke my spirit. Ashlee and I went down to unemployment where I was rejected from receiving Idaho unemployment. I need to call California, but I might not qualify because I may not have made enough in the last quarter. WHICH IS WHY I NEED UNEMPLOYMENT! I don't totally understand it all and there is a chance I can still receive it, but needless to say, it is quite discouraging.
I am jobless, with no prospects.
I am drowning in debt, with no income.
I know this is only temporary, but in the moment this feels all-consuming and rather hopeless. I'm praying and hoping for a change of events, like Abby had in the movie, where she finds something she is passionate about and can put her heart into.
Or at least a job to pay the bills.