Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sabbath Year

I started going to Bible Study Fellowship at the beginning of January.  I guess you could call it a New Year’s resolution.  At first I was really unsure if it was something I wanted to do, but God continues to reveal Himself to me and show that this is exactly where I need to be.  I began during the middle of the Life of Moses study, as they were wrapping up studying Leviticus.  At first I was like, “Seriously?! Who studies Leviticus?!!”  Honestly, there is so much great stuff in there!  God did know what He was doing when He included it.  

I learned about the Sabbath year in Leviticus 25:1-7.  Every seven years the Israelites were to observe a Sabbath year for the land.  For the six years prior they were to sow their fields, prune their vineyards and gather their crops, but during the seventh year they were to rest.  This not only was to give the land rest, but also the people. 

My guess is that the Israelites had one of two thoughts about the Sabbath year in the new land.  Doubt:  “How can we survive a year with no work?”  “How will we spend our time?”  Trust:  “God has provided for us in the past; He will provide again.”  The purpose of a Sabbath year for the land and the people was not only a time of rest and renewal, but also a test of faith.  The Israelites had no need to worry, because our God is faithful and does provide.  Trusting and obeying God in seemingly impossible situations increases faith and proves God is trustworthy.

Maybe this is my Sabbath year.  Not one without work, but a Sabbath year in that I have to fully rely on God to provide for me and learn to rest in Him.  I have, in a sense gathered my crops, through getting my Bachelors and DCE Certificate and doing what I can to prepare myself for ministry.  Now I need to rest in God and trust that God will provide for my future.  I do not know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

here's the thing

I feel like Christian girls have been taught to wait patiently for their prince charming to come and sweep them off their feet.  Maybe that also has to do with all the Disney movies I grew up watching.  It is all about waiting for him to come and find you.  There is nothing wrong with waiting patiently and I do not want to push myself into something that is not according to God's will.  But sometimes it seems so passive to me.  Is love really going to come and find me?  How much is waiting patiently for God's will for your love life and how much is actively taking risks and putting yourself out there?  Where do you draw the line?  I honestly believe that until I am content in God I will not be ready for a relationship.  I believe that God is working on both me and my man to be ready at the same time.  But is God going to give me a notice to inform me when I am officially content?  Then will God drop my future husband at my feet?  How does this work?  How active am I supposed to be?

believe and be satisfied

Everyone longs to give themselves to someone, to have a deep relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But, God to a Christian says, "No," not until you are satisfied and content with living, loved by Me alone. I love you my child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until with Me-exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longing. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep that satisfaction, knowing that I am. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. And you must wait. Don't look around at the things others have gotten, or that I have given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking up at Me or you'll miss what I have to show you. And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love more wonderful than you would ever dream of. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have planned for you is ready, you have to wait. I am working this very minute to have both of you ready at the same time. And until you are both satisfied exclusively with the life I've planned for you through Me, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and this is perfect Love. And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love, I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me and enjoy both materially and concretely the everlasting beauty and perfection of love that is offered you with Myself. I love you utterly. I am God Almighty. Believe and be satisfied.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

everything adventurous

I got a tattoo. [1.31.09]

everything adventurous
This statement is not only from a work of art by one of my favorite artists, Kurt Halsey, but it is also a statement I have come to live by.

everything adventurous
These past two years have been just that.  Moving to California on my own to pursue school and ministry. Having two of my besties, Ashlee and Jenny join me in this adventure.  One star for each of them.

everything adventurous
I never, with a capital EVER, thought I'd get a tattoo.  But this is a reminder to me of the life I want to live and the faith I need to survive.

everything adventurous
Step out of your comfort zone. Take risks. Live life abundantly.  Travel. Explore. Learn. Seek. Love.

everything adventurous
Seeking and following God's will for your life.  Whole-heartedly surrendering control and your own plans and allowing God to work His best for you.

everything adventurous
Taking that step of faith. Not knowing what your future holds, but trusting in who holds your future.

Monday, February 2, 2009

25 random things about me

So I already did this on facebook, but it was fun and I thought of some more.

1. I am terrified of throwing up. I have not thrown up since I was 13 years old and I never want to again. It grosses me out.
2. I have a tattoo. (everything adventurous! 1.31.09) I never, ever, thought I would get a tattoo. Ever.
3. I have my belly button pierced. My dad took me to get it and paid for it. And took pictures.
4. When I was 4 years old I knocked my front teeth in on my dad’s prosthetic leg. How many kids can say that?
5. I hate when people ask if I like being a twin. I’ve been asked it too many times and think it’s a stupid question. Do you like NOT being a twin?
6. I have ten cousins. 8 on my mom’s side. 2 on my dad’s side.
7. I have crocheted an afghan.
8. I have read the Bible cover to cover once. It took me two years.
9. Ashlee, Jenny and I have been mistaken for sisters over 4 times.
10. I love the white conversation hearts the best and always save them for last.
11. I used to be an extreme worrier, but I have been learning to turn my worries into prayer.
12. I have never caught a fish in all the times I went fishing with my family, but I did fall in the lake twice in one evening.
13. For my abnormal psych class in college we visited a prison and talked with 3 murders. It was a heart-wrenching, eye-opening experience that reinforced to me why there has to be a God.
14. I love cooking meals for friends and family. I come from a family of amazing cooks! I can cook roast and strudel by myself.
15. I always paint my toenails. Always. There is rarely a time when they don’t have polish on them.
16. I have 22 pairs of shoes. I just counted. 6 pairs are black. 3 pairs are converses.
17. The only time I have sung by myself, in public was for my voice class recital junior year of college. I sang In My Own Little Corner. I still feel like I don’t know how to sing.
18. I drink too much pop and need to cut back. Pepsi used to be my drink of choice, but ever since I went to Europe I tend to choose Coke over Pepsi.
19. When I was little I used to have a reoccurring dream with a boat in it. One night the dream continued from where it always ended and I never had it again.
20. I cannot whistle, but not for lack of trying.
21. I have two crushes.
22. One of my goals in life is to buy a pair of Manolo Blaniks or Christian Louboutins.
23. I am secretly jealous of people who have found true love and wonder if I will find it.
24. I want to paint a self portrait.
25. I should have gone to bed an hour ago.