Wednesday, November 28, 2007

keep looking up on past the birds

I'm feeling better today. I still have a lot to accomplish before break, but I feel organized and prepared for what is to come. It is amazing how much a step back can put the situation in a new perspective.

Fifteen days until I am home again.
I cannot wait.
As much as I do want to be home I do not want to rush through these fifteen days.

Tomorrow I have 2 Christmas things to go to.
Friday I get to lead the junior high devotion.
Mix in a roommate Christmas thing in there.
And a day of baking with Eric.
Next Sunday I get to lead the senior high Sunday school class.
The Monday of finals week I am going to see my Seattle boys, Barcelona, play in LA.
And hopefully I can take my New Testament final early so I can spend that Thursday at Disneyland instead.
And just maybe I can find some time in there to go to the beach.

When I look at it that way, these fifteen days shouldn't be half bad.

Plus I have Christmas music, an Ingrid Michaelson CD, a Spice Girls CD and a Starbucks gift card to carry me through studying for finals.

Things are looking up.
Plus I only have one Christmas present left to buy and a few cards to write.

I hope your day is looking up too.

Monday, November 26, 2007

we are breakable girls and boys

Waking up at 3:30 a.m. (Mountain Time) is no fun.
Flying by yourself is no fun.
Turbulance is no fun.
Heavy bags are no fun.
Neither is unpacking.
But I welcome the warm weather.

It's time to readjust my mindset.
To change my attitude.
To focus.
To be productive.

I'm not ready.
At least I don't feel ready.

There are so many things on my mind.
A lot of emotions, worries and doubts.
If I learned anything during my time at home it is to turn those into prayer.
To give my worries and stresses to God.

It's time to surrender.
To get serious.
To sit down and work.
To prepare for what is to come.

I'm scared.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

a brief history. of. fat kitties.

I love being home.
LOVE it!

Yesterday was pretty incredible.
Breakfast at Express Cafe with Ashlee, Daniel, Eric and Jessica.
Hanging out at Justin's.
It felt like no time has passed.
I laughed so hard.
I love that I can be myself and not worry about what my friends will think.
I cannot wait to spend more time with them in a few weeks.

Today was also fabulous.
Time at church.
Laughing over dinner.
Teasing. Joking. Games.

I wish I had the perfect words to describe how I'm feeling right now.
I want to stay in this moment forever and savor it.

I'm blessed.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

shine jesus shine, potlucks and pink friday

I am home.
I feel whole again.
I cannot stop smiling.
Or laughing.
I am relaxed and confident.
I delighted in two Milkyway mochas from Moxie Java.
Only the best coffee in the world!
I watched the Broncos squish the Vandals.
I got to spend time with my church family today.
The women in Bible study are like my aunts. I love them.
Pastor has not changed a bit.
The puppets brought back so many memories.
As did the potluck dinner.
Driving around town I feel as if I have never left.
I cannot wait until Ashlee is back.
Or until I can see more family and friends.

There is something special about this place.

My heart is so full.

P.S. I think we are going to do the crazy shopping thing Friday. Look out VS!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

i can't spell it out for you

Sometimes I wonder if I have unrealistic expectations about love and romance.

I want someone to pursue me and put in the effort. I want someone who longs to see me and thinks about me when I am not around. I want someone who complements my personality and inspires me to be the best I can. I want someone who desires our relationship to be centered in Christ. I want someone who I can laugh and cry and grow with.

Does that seem out of reach? Lately, it feels like it.

And it is causing me to feel like something is wrong with me. I feel like too much and not enough all at once. Silly girl.

I have been told more than once that this is not the place I should be looking for a guy. Then could someone please tell me where that place is?

In looking at the bigger picture I realize that my “single time” will probably be a small portion of my whole life; I cannot help but long for a companion to share my life with right now.

Just the thoughts of a single girl, alone in California and avoiding homework. <3

Monday, November 12, 2007

i laugh the most in my doctrine class

Doctrine has easily become my favorite class. These are some random quotes from my doctrine professor that I wanted to share.

"We're all frickin Lutherans."

Advice Rossow's dad gave him:
When he left for college: "Keep your zipper up."
When he got married: "Get married and stay married."
When he became a pastor: "Preach well and don't be a jerk."

"My greatest fear is when we combine the greeting with a holy kiss, with the gift of tongues."

"I facilitated you into the world. Respect me."

After a tangent:
"...back to marriage. That's a lot simplier......NOT!"

I found out in class today that Professor Rossow and I have the same confirmation verse. He said that sometimes he likes to give his favorite student his confirmation verse. He also said that sometimes for an ornery student he would like to combine two verses:
"He breathed his go and do likewise."

These are just a few of the funny things that I have heard in my class. I do not think I have gone to one doctrine class and not laughed. I love it because Professor Rossow makes the topics interesting and always has some funny commentary.

Oh, and just another random quote from my Polity professor (Seltz) that I'll leave you with to think about:
"Christ really stuck forgiveness up your nose."

Okay...time to finish watching the Seahawks game. Homework is just going to have to wait.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

prepare ye the way of the lord

I saw Godspell for the second time last night. The Concordia Theatre put it on. Eric was John the Baptist and Judas. He, along with everyone else did an excellent job. I wish I could see it a dozen more times. Unfortunately tomorrow is the last show and it's sold out. I loved seeing the stories acted out that I've heard and read many times in such a fun and creative way. There was lots of laughing and I have to admit, some tears too. It was quite wonderful.

So, really bad...I bought seasons 1 & 2 of The Office and now I can't stop watching it. I guess it's good that things are starting to slow down a little. I am excited because I get to go home Friday afternoon for Thanksgiving break! Woo! I haven't been home in about 6 months, so I can't wait! There is something special about home and family.

Okay, so this post is becoming pointless. I'm having a hard time focusing because I put in The Office.

More later.